Registered Coach & Guide
A lot of ‘life’ has happened in my life! What I mean by this is that I’ve had a lot of challenges to overcome: sorrow to work my way through, crises to survive, mountains to climb (both metaphorical & literal) and holes to get myself out of.
I lived most of my life feeling very alone inside. I had lots of friends, but I never really opened up to anyone about my experiences or how I was feeling. Talking about things I had gone through and how I really felt deep down, allowing the hurt and pain to come to the surface, was far too scary a prospect, so I didn't go there.
The result was I always felt false; like I couldn't really ever be myself. It felt as though I was stuck playing a part in a real-life soap-opera. I felt that in order to fit in with those around me I had to keep playing along with my role in this fictional life. Keeping your true thoughts and feelings locked away so no-one else knows they exist takes a lot of effort, and is very draining. I had panic attacks, felt stressed and alone, but I knew I had to keep going.
Then one day, I woke up with the usual thought in my head "I'm not happy and I don't want to live like this", but this day was different, because I decided that I was going to do something about it, and I did. I began exploring who I really am, understanding and accepting my flaws, and realising that I am SO much more than I had ever realised. I began challenging the beliefs I had about myself and how I see the world. As I became more and more at peace with my own self, I extended my growth into new areas, studying Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT), Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP), Mindfulness and most recently Acceptance Commitment Therapy (ACT).
I started helping others who found themselves in a hole that they couldn't see a way out of. Having been there, I knew they needed someone to listen without judgement and to stand beside them in their hole, to help them work out their options of how to get out into the light and be free to live their true life.
My first thoughts each day are now gratitude for the gift of another new day and the opportunities it will bring, and excitement at the prospect of all the new things I will learn from those I connect with.